My Life in Words
I love to talk. Being vulnerable helps me heal. Documenting it is cathartic.
If there's one thing we can all agree on, it's this...we all struggle with weight issues. Too much, to little, I wish I looked like that in my clothes OR if I lost 10-15 lbs I'd FEEL so much better!!! Truth is, you probably would, but what's the bigger issue? BODY IMAGE and ridding your body and life of too many toxins. I've dealt with this for as long as I can remember. You too? Then hear me out...
Looking in the mirror and LOVING what you see is a total inside job. It's necessary and we ALL deserve it.
Weightloss is a number, a destination...BUT a Healthy body is a ongoing journey, it's OUR real life version of what WE feel on the inside. It shows in our face, skin, size, and shape. Those things we don't have control over. #allsizesmatter #everyshapeisbeautiful. So we MUST take care of us. All of us. We must put in what we want to show on the outside. And don't place a number on it. It's way more than just size and food. A beautiful soul shines brightly no matter the vessel it's in. BUT...we are given only one body. What does yours say about you?
I don't like to admit it sometimes, but I can't remember a time when I loved my body. I do look back at pictures and wish I was that small again...but I'd never go back to her. I'd never want to hurt inside like that again. My outside rarely matched my inside when I was a "skinny bitch". I felt a lot of shame and other wicked things, but beautiful wasn't one of them.
4 years ago I started a healthy journey, God knows I couldn't handle one more unhealthy one. I met my husband, my biggest fan, and I turned my life around. Once and for all. For me. So the "me" now is stronger, braver, and healthier. My insides match my outside even though I will never be a size 0 again.
Now let me be honest, some months my BODY says I love veggies, fruits, and water AND others it screams I drink too much wine and over indulge on snacks, but you want to know the best part? Know body knows that but me. Nobody cares but me. So I have the power. NOT ONCE, has my husband or a sweet friend EVER said...hey girl, you look like you gained a few lbs and I don't like what I see. Never. Maybe I'm just lucky, but I think there's something to that. It's in my mind...yes there are legitimate health concerns out there; especially with the foods we eat, and I like to be informed. Hence the Virgin diet...
I'm cutting out foods that are proven "allergens" or "triggers" and once this diet, more like removing the toxins is over...I'm confident I'll find my food issues. Then I will trash them. I will grieve hard if it's corn though...I'm eliminating the following:
Soy, Corn, Gluten, Dairy, Sugar (artificial as well), Eggs, and Peanuts for 21 days.
Today I started my day with a vega shake...had another for lunch and I'll have a very clean dinner, salad with quinoa!!
Feeling great and not starving!! Win win!!
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"What makes you different or weird, that's your strength" -Meryl Streep